I’m scared.
of loving, of losing
of being self destructive
of thinking so much I don’t live
of being trapped inside my own head
of realizing everything everyone else doesn’t
of knowing more about people than they know about themselves
of understanding the way the universe works but not being able to do anything about it
of not living to see things change, of not being the one to change them
of disappointing God, my parents, my siblings and myself
of opening up and you not liking what you see
of people who don’t get it, and never will
of caring about something too much
of not caring enough
of being scared.